Tomorrow

Today, I feel a little depressed. Because my patient was upset. Tomorrow is the day that she is supposed to go home after a week of rehabilitation. But due to the goal she aims to achieve, and how we deem that as unsafe for her, she got her candy taken away. She had a decision to make. It is either that she forsakes her goal, or that she stays under our care for another week or two. In my honest opinion, she made the right one.

However, her sadness was palpable and it rubbed off on me. Seeing her sullen self, watching her smile to assure us that she is fine, together with the occasional dark comments she make, I feel for her.

After spending two weeks in Inpatient, I look at life in a different light. I had always spent a lot of time with my family, but now it seems like it is not enough. It seems as though it will never be enough. This morning, I woke up an hour earlier to spread peanut butter on white bread for Pops, just because he had mentioned over yesterday's dinner that he wanted to have them. Hearing him thank me out loud for the first time jostled my complacency. When was the last time I had ever done anything for him?

I just found out after my bath that my lifegivers will both be free tomorrow night. I am going to go to the nearest mall with them to catch a movie, something that they have not done in the last decade.

Today, I may be a little upset. But I am sure that tomorrow will be one of the best days in this year. Because I love this couple to bits, and I will make sure that all will be good tomorrow ♥